I have never considered myself a “writer”. I have no formal training, no diploma that anoints me to this sanctioned post.

As I prepare for my first ever writing retreat I discover to my surprise I am a writer. Writing has been a longtime companion often under lock and key in a private world of diaries and journals.

Writing is an expression of my soul. What certificate is needed for our soul to speak?

One writing assignment to prepare for my“write a bestseller in a weekend” workshop (it usually takes a weekend to write a blog!) asks us to begin writing on…

What I am meant to do with my writing.

These are some of the words that come through.

Does your voice really matter? Does it really count? Do you have the strength and confidence to make a difference in the world?

You identify with doubt but it is simply something you cling to in order to keep from experiencing the majesty of your truth. It is a security blanket, warm and comfortable. But doubt is not the truth of who you are.

Doubt hides your truth, even from you. For there is fear in being seen.

Every time you allowed your truth to shine you were hurt. Your light had to dampen. It was not safe to shine.
Doubt is the dimming.

Doubt began as a warm, grey coat you put on for protection. But it wove itself into the fabric of your being, undermining your instincts, clouding your perceptions.

If the light of your truth was too bright for others, the natural response was to go dim to survive.

Doubt was a way to handle your light. That is all it is. A way to cope. A brilliant strategy but not your truth.
It is time to remove the cloak of doubt.

Is that even possible? Where would it go? How will I feel safe?

To be safe is a fundamental need. We continually look for security outside of ourself. We look in our bank accounts, we look to our partners.

We do not want our beliefs threatened for they are the bedrock of our safety net. Like with doubt. It limits you but the thought of living without it is unsettling.

Where will you hide? How will you live if you are exposed, naked and seen? That can feel more frightening than doubt.

Yet true safety, true security, will not be found until we are stripped naked of hiding places.

It is the paradox of spiritual law. To be safe we must leave what we have relied on for security for it has held captive our soul.

Our minds have dominated our consciousness for centuries. Laws have risen rooted in science and reason. Prove it says the mind. Show me and it succumbs.

The paradox of spiritual law makes no sense to the logic of mind for Spirit is not of the mind. It cannot be governed by its laws.

As our spiritual consciousness evolves our laws and beliefs must shift.
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The laws that govern our soul need to be understood to offer guidance and direction.
It is time to take off the cloak.

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This past summer I had the honor to offer a despacho ceremony with an inspiring community of elevated souls in the beauty of Savannah. Before the event I had a chance to chat with Stacy Hill of New Light Video Magazine. Check out our conversation!

https://videopress.com/v/XamvLDcm
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New Light offers a monthly video magazine online. You can view the entire video magazine here.

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On May 10th I arrived in Peru for the fourth time. I had a coca leaf reading my first day there. Shamans use coca leaves for divination the way one might use tarot cards or tea leaves. The coca leaves are prayed into and then thrown onto a sacred cloth.

“Did you write a book?” asked Don Andreas. I should not have been shocked but with wide-eyed awe I said, “Yes” while thinking “Oh no, here we go again with the book.”
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“Well you have to make it bigger. You have to include more of what you have learned on your journeys here in Peru. You are like a farmer planting seeds that others in the future may harvest. This wisdom is not your own. It must be shared.”

This message seemed to reverberate louder than ever during my last journeys to Peru. Share. Teach. Remove all doubt. Go forth with confidence.

I do not know how, and I do not know when, but the leaves have been thrown and it is time to grow bigger. I have been assured that the Apus will help me. With this entry I make myself accountable. A request to Spirit for guidance. To remember it is not about “me”. There is nothing that is “mine”. This remembering helps me to get out of my own way. Remove the self-inflicted obstacles created by doubt as another sacred birth is about to begin.​

My re-entry since returning from Peru has been slow. Slow on technology. Rusty with writing. So I will start with a prayer. A prayer shared by Apu Huascaran for the world.

One of the many privileges of the women’s journey to Peru over the past four years is the dialogue with the Apus. With the altomesayoks (Andean shamans who summon the Spirits of the Mountains) we step through the veils of this world. In a darkened room, void of all light, we pray. The strong flapping sound of wings announces the arrival of the Apus. The thuds beneath our feet are the entrance of the Santa Tierras, the ancient feminine land Spirits.

The spirits of the mountains and Earth in voice. They speak to us only in the dark. Arriving from dimensions unable to sustain physical form in the density of our planet’s light.

We were given a prayer to share with the world by Apu Huascaran in one of our last Apu sessions in Peru this May.

PREPARE FOR THE PRAYER BY THE FOLLOWING ACTIONS…
Sitting in an upright posture, feet flat on the floor, hands on your thighs or at your sides.

Breathe in through your nose, and out through your mouth. In and out, slowly breathing in and out.

Feel your physical body relaxed.

Feel your energetic body calm, at ease, tranquil.

Feel your emotional body in a balanced state, centered, clear, and neutral.

Feel your mind at ease, there is nothing that you need or want in this moment.

Become aware of your pure mind, that which you feed with the work of prayer. The feeling of joy and happiness is present.

Your body that contains intuition is open.

Your body is one, and the golden light of will power flows over you and surrounds you.

You are united with your seven bodies.

Your body is in peace with the earth.

The fluids of your body flow with the water of the earth.

The fire of the earth is in your hearts.

The air of the universe flows in through your nose, and flows out of your body through your mouth.

I am how the Creator made me, and this is the moment to say…

Thank you Creator, thank you for my life.

Creator, thank you for my will.

Thank you for all of the organs in my body.

Thank you for the perfection of the footprints I leave
on my sacred path to help others find their way.

Thank you for my arms and my hands
made in your image enabling me to do your work Creator.

Thank you Mother Earth, my mother.

Thank you mother for giving me water so I do not die of thirst.

Thank you mother for giving me food so I do not die of hunger.

Thank you mother for the fire in my heart so I may love deeper.

Thank you mother for giving me your energy so I do not fall from tiredness.

Thank you for the air as cosmic food that gives me life.

Thank you mother for the heat of life that gives us light.

Help me Creator to understand your laws and to respect them.

Help me Creator to respect all these elements of life you have created;
the earth, the waters, the air, and the light,
and all things that live in the universe.

I pray for myself and everyone in the world.

Halle!!

Place your right hand on your heart.
Feel your heart beating.
Feel your hand being lifted by the energy of Creation.