A COCA LEAF READING: THE APUS HAVE SPOKEN

Beyond Fear may never have been written had it not been for my obscure self-published book, A Structure for Spirit. Its first incarnation was known as, A Success Journal: Daily Practices to Manifest Your Intentions,  self-published in 2005 along with an audio of guided meditations.

To create a book out of thin air, with nothing more than the ideas in your head, takes quite a bit of fire. And that fire kept me going for a good year after the book was written, promoting it through family (oh what I have put them through in my life!), friends and clients. I ran out of steam as the energy invested seemed to show less and less payoff. I abandoned the book to a closet shelf where it began collecting dust for a number of years.
In 2010, one of the mentors on my travels to Peru asked me, “How do you intend to bring your wisdom to the world?” It felt like the most profound question anyone had ever asked me. I had never given it much thought but my book in the closet came to mind. After a series of synchronistic events it seemed time to pull the book about daily practices down from the shelf.

I have had a daily practice for a very long time so what need did I have for a book to help create a daily practice? In the words of my mentor, “You’re blowing past your own medicine.”
I finally became a student of my own book. My father had recently died. My beloved had left me leaving my heart shattered to pieces. A period of isolating loneliness engulfed me.
The book landed in perfect and divine timing. It transformed and so did I. Everything changed, including the name. (Well my name stayed the same.) A Structure for Spirit was born.
Balboa Press became the new self publishing agency. By this time Facebook was invented. I started a page. Nearly 9000 likes. The fire returned.

Keeping up with writing blogs and posting on Facebook was a full-time job, especially since I have never considered myself to be a writer. My entire life has been in healthcare and healing. My full-time job demands much of my time so for the second time I felt myself abandon the book as the dividends diminished.